Scared

So - I started this blog to write about my 30 day challenge and beyond. Here's the brake down. On July 16, will begin a 30 day challenge along with three other people. We each chose our own BeachBody fitness program and we commit to following its program - food and workouts and shakeology - for a month. We check in weekly with our team and keep each other encouraged to keep pushing on. There is no "winner" at the end. There is no prize money. We only win what our bodies have accomplished. For me, I am hoping that will be shredding a good amount of weight and seeing some muscle definition start to pop out of my limbs. I am hoping to feel happier and healthier - more energetic and spunky. I want to feel confident.

So there's the run down. Pretty simple. Not too hard to grasp.

So for a while now - it seems like weeks- I have been sharing this challenge with my friends and family. I have even tried (unsuccessfully) to talk them into doing the challenge with me!  I think I will just have to be a shining example for them this month so that next month they will do one with me! :)

Today all my stuff for the challenge arrived in the mail. I always love revieving things in the mail :) I have been pumping myself up and mentally making a game plan for this challenge. I have been bugging my coach/team leader - Cory - daily and I THOUGHT I was ready for this. I mean I was so excited that I wanted to use two programs (to double results... maybe?) and Cory made a hybrid program. So I thought I was all set to go and then tonight after dinner with my in laws I take the box out that I received this morning and I look at it and I see all this stuff. Books on how to use the program to achieve optimal results and bands and DVDs and I started to get all overwhelmed and nervous and my husband had to ask me if I was okay. I was. I was just all of a sudden scared.

Why. Why are we scared of trying new things? New things that we KNOW are going to benefit us if we can just stick to doing something new. I think its because its not the newness that scares us, its the unknown or the thought of failure. I think I got so nervous that I would fail in front of my blog audience, in front of my husband, my family, and fail my coach, Cory - who also teaches at the local gym I belong to.

But I think this could be a healthy fear and when channeled right, could be some kick ass motivation. I already know that I want to do this for myself and I think that is the most important thing. You wont achieve anything unless you want it for yourself first, especially weight loss. BUT now I have someone else to work for. I can work for my kids - for them to learn what healthy living is and for them to have a healthy respect for fitness. For the people who read this - to encourage them. If a girl who weighs over 200 lbs can do it - they can too! For my family who has suffered heart attacks at the age of 45 and for the ones who battled cancer and for the ones who have heart disease and mental illness and diabetes and joint pain and the list goes on and on and on. They don't have to worry to much about me or my family. We are making the change together. John has committed to do this with me and I have my sister who has joined me in a gym routine. We are doing it together - because truth is, when you work out you don't just work out your body, you work out your body and mind. And when you work out, you cut out your risk of cancers and heart disease and diabetes and high cholesterol.

So when I looked at the positives of what this challenge really meant for me - I wasn't scared anymore. I was once again excited! So now I have 4 more days until my challenge officially starts. I have four more days to prepare my meals for next week. I am stoked! I can do this.

-Kayla-