Starting to Feel the Pressure!

I started this whole blog to help keep myself accountable and while on my journey I have heard a lot of people saying I am an inspiration and they are proud of me. It has felt so good to hear all that stuff! It definitely kept me going.

I am so nervous about this final weigh in. I weighed myself yesterday (Friday) and I have GAINED two pounds. I am confident it will go back down by Wednesday, but still - it is discouraging. I am not a person of patience and I am annoyed to see that I have put on weight when I know I am putting in the time and tracking my calories. I also just want so badly for people to see that I am putting my money where my mouth is. Both literally and metaphorically. I have invested a lot of time, money and dedication to this and I so badly want to just have it pay off.

“The truth is we all get tired, we all get weary. In fact, if you never feel like giving up, then your dreams are too small. If you never feel like quitting, then you need to set some larger goals. When that pressure comes to get discouraged and to think about how you can’t take it anymore, that is completely normal. Every person feels that way at times.”

- via Joel Osteen Ministries

 

Today I kind of felt like giving up. Today I did not want to work out, but not like how I haven't before - it was because today I felt defeated! I felt like I am not going to win this challenge. I have slipped up here and there and I am irritated. The scale is not reflecting my hard work. I feel like somewhere I am messing up. It doesn't help that I am a VERY competitive person. Others are seeing my progress but it's the worse when I cannot see it. So to keep me going I have decided to stop thinking about ONLY the challenge - it sounds crazy but I think maybe the pressure of only have like three days left is making me kinda crazy. I have enrolled in a few 5k runs --

September 15 - Fit for Fall 5k with the YMCA

September 29 - Survival Run (Mud Run)

September 30 - Race for the Cure

October 6 - Color Run

 

Please don't misunderstand me. I have NOT given up on my challenge. I still am finishing those workouts and doing my best to win! I just have to get in a mind set that I need to keep going AFTER my challenge is over. I need to get in the mind set of training for these runs and trying to get an AWESOME time.

 

I have to make a special shout out to a few friends, Karen. She has been so supportive and really helped me get out of my funks even if she didn't know it. Melissa for congratulating me for accomplishing doing burpees. It meant a lot to see that someone else noticed I DID IT!

 

So please, hold me accountable. Encourage me. Ask me questions and check up on me. I will be honest, the pictures will show it. I want to keep being that inspiration. I want to be that role model for big girls (or anyone really) to know, you can do it!

 

-Kayla-