Today while working out my daughter had informed me I looked weird. A few days ago she informed me I looked like a Chinese Dancer. I have no clue what that meant, but she thought she was making a joke. I shrugged it off. But today - today after she informed me I looked "weird" she took it a step further to close our blinds. I asked her what are you doing? She replied to me that I was embarrassing her. Ouch!
Throughout my journey, I was hoping to make my habits be an inspiration to her or make her have a drive to want to be physically active as well! I wanted her to know that being fit was a good thing and to do the whole "monkey see - monkey do" thing. Today stung. It almost shook me to be embarrassed to do it in front of her. I actually sent her to her room cause she really hurt my feelings. It was weird to be slightly wounded by a five-year-old's words. We had been through the "I want a new mom" stage and "I don't like you." I didn't care about any of those things. I knew she didn't really mean it and that it was because that occasion didn't pan out the way she had wanted. This time was different. I think maybe I want her to be proud of her mom.
I finished the work out and she came out of the room and did the ab part of it with me, but still as I reflect I want to know why did that bother me so much? If I didnt care if the neighbors saw me doing kick boxing, why on earth should she. Have I not given her confidence? Is she lacking in the extravert catagory?
I will continue doing my workouts and maybe as time goes on, she will be more proud and less embarrassed of me. Either way, this girl is not done with her fat girl shred!
-Kayla-
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