Somewhere In The Middle: July Challenge!

Today I weigh: 207lbs
I am 5'2" tall
I wear a size 16 pant

This is it. I am done! When I met John I weighed about 130 - when I started dating him about 140 and after I had Rylee I weighed 165. All these weights I wasn't thrilled with but never hated myself. Never looked in the mirror and cringed. I only saw minor things that I thought to myself "Oh well". I was always able to diet a little and lose my belly. Now, I cringe. I hate "sexy time" and am embarrassed for my husband when he introduces me to new work buddies.

Let me make this perfectly clear - JOHN HAS NEVER made me feel bad about myself - ever.

He ONLY makes comments about my weight when I comment on it.

He knows its a sensitive issue for me and is very supportive with any route I want to take.

With all that being said, I am almost certain he would rather a smaller wife - I don't know anyone who would take fat over fit.

SO - Last night I joined a fitness challenge. It starts July 16 and lasts 40 days. I will work with a team lead by BeachBody Coach Cory Miller. We will check in daily on a FB page made just for us. We commit to a beachbody plan (p90x, turbo jam, chaLEAN extreme, or insanity) and use it for the minimum challenge time of 30 days! I know I can do this. I know this time I want it and I have to make time for it - and I will.I have chosen to do ChaLEAN Extreme and Turbo Jam.

(John is going to do p90x along side of me to show his support - sweet right?)

So, I have decided to take on this blog as my second phase of this challenge. Even though the challenge doesn't start for two more weeks, it just seems lazy to wait till then. I don't need Biggest Loser or Extreme Makeover Weight Loss Edition, I just need someone who trains like Cory who will work with me and a group of other people for enough time to TEACH me what to do. To encourage me. To give me constructive criticism - 'cause lets me honest - if John tried to tell me to lose weight or work harder, I would punch him in his throat and say a big fat WHATEVER.

Please share your struggles, tips comments and suggestions here with me. I have thick skin, I can take it. I will be posting pictures (look at your own risk, being 5 foot and 200 lbs aint really pretty underneath the clothes) giving your play by play updates, posting videos of me huffing and puffing while i work this house down and sharing my accomplishments along the way!